HEAD ↔ HEART

When working from center, the Heart Mind leads while the Intellectual Mind collaborates—creating a dialogue between knowing and doing. My Heart Mind and my Intellectual Mind are working together, exchanging, in conversation. Success appears uncertain, yet fulfillment grows slowly and steadily.

When I am not "doing the right thing," I am working at the periphery, engaging my "Fear of Lack" at the helm. My Intellectual Mind makes real in my outer world what my fear whispers in my inner world. My Heart Mind and Intellectual Mind are disconnected. I enjoy many levels of success quickly, but this enjoyment is equally ephemeral. I find myself feeling empty, in need of a refill.

When I am "doing the right thing," I am working from my center. I am engaging my Heart Mind at the helm. My Intellectual Mind makes real in my outer world what my Heart Mind knows in my inner world. My Heart Mind works at a different speed, and success appears uncertain. Yet I find enjoyment in the arduousness of the journey, with nothing to show for!

Can a person as neurotic, analytical, and hyper self-critical—when left to their own devices—reunite with their inner wisdom? This journey is about finding your way home to yourself. Your Heart Knows what your mind can only grasp blindly in the dark.

My Intellectual Mind has been well-trained, yet my Heart Mind works at a different speed. The collaboration requires patience, trust, and the willingness to value what cannot be measured as highly as what can be quantified. This is the practice of integration.

I tried for days and days to think about what this week's lesson was supposed to be. My mind has gone to zero. Quiescence did not occur due to lack of drama, great emails, or insightful friends. Quiescence feels quite good, actually.

I find myself at a loss for words. This is cramping my style for the "lesson of the week" format. But perhaps this is the lesson, exactly. I'm OK with Uncertainty around the destination. I am beginning to experience the feeling of Certainty within.

It took me about 5 months... and I think I have found what I am looking for. I am looking for a "happy blend of head and heart*." [...] When I am "doing the right thing", I am working from my center. I am engaging my Heart Mind at the helm. I am deploying my Intellectual Mind to make real in my outer world what my Heart Mind knows in my inner world. My Heart Mind and my Intellectual Mind are working together - collaborating - exchanging - in dialog.

The intellectual aspect of spirituality is alluring, so alluring that I become consumed by intellectual basket-weaving and forget a bigger picture. [...] "Man's hardest and longest journey is from the head to the heart." - Angaangaq

In the course of the last couple of months, I went from one extreme of "too much head" to the other extreme of "too much heart". I felt a sense of intoxication around me, and even though I experienced moments of divine inspiration, I began to feel uncomfortable. [...] This mysterious and "sudden" physical affliction was, to me, a confirmation that I had gone to the other extreme. I was off-track from the "blending of head and heart" that I was seeking.

Those of us who have a lot of education and training and have worked in high performance occupations often have over-developed the analytical, critical side of our reasoning. [...] My occupation requires at times very analytical, detailed review and drafting - which is a technical strength for what I do, but very confining if continued in everyday life.

I've had full days and fun weekends... I finally sent Becky an email and I had a nice chat this morning with Laurent and... I'D MUCH RATHER ENJOY LIFE THAN ANALYZE IT RIGHT NOW!

Also, I made the mistake of typing "medication" instead of "meditation"... and I looked at the word "c" and "t". I suppose in medication we are using "chemical" means while in meditation we are using "thought" means.

Months ago, Pat Fleming told me that I needed to speak from the heart. [...] Yet, I find that I am still speaking from my Mind, not from my Heart Mind. Once I typed up what I thought should be my speech material, I put my energy trying to lock over 4300 words EXACTLY AS THEY APPEARED ON PAPER onto my mind! (See? Speaking from the Mind.)

I find myself opening up the calendar to remember what happened this past week, so that I may think about what "lessons" I have learned... Again, I find myself at a loss for words. [...] But perhaps this is the lesson, exactly. [...] I'm OK with Uncertainty around the destination. I am beginning to experience the feeling of Certainty within.

Jane with Baba: "Your Heart Knows what your mind can only grasp blindly in the dark! Yet your mind keeps dipping into the mud for water! This is the ridicule of the mind."